You go out and get a life. Live your best life for you! You make self-improvements, 180 on bad toxic behaviors and become the best version of yourself that you can be! (Be a woman only a fool would leave! You learn how to be a fulfilled, happy person. By yourself! It's impossible to be a happy half of a couple until you've become a happy, self-differentiated, emotionally-detached individual!
Snowball, are you in individual counseling? Get a good counselor and explore the above.
That's how you move forward with YOUR life.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018