I'm a newbie help!

[Snowball]

Thank you for your wise words. I do need to enforce my boundaries and that has always been a real struggle for me. I have a difficult time coming up with the consequence. The thing is, he doesn't even know that I know so much of what he is doing. Even if I just basic it down to I don't want a relationship with someone who spends his time acting single in a bar, he'll say he isn't acting single. I have thought about things like this and written things down so many times and in the end it results in us not being together.

I have read through much of the boundary's thread here. I think what hurts the most is I get in my head that HE is making me enforce boundaries and it is painful for ME! I can't have a loving relationship because he is acting out. I know its about respecting myself, but I am just sitting here sad and hurt.

I told him this morning that I am going out of town. It didn't even phase him. Quite often I just can't get over him acting like he really doesn't care about me in the slightest. It is heartbreaking. I get instant anxiety and just can't move past the hurt no matter what I am doing. I actually was crying at the circus recently. Who cries at the circus?! I am letting him ruin my time! I was so excited to see the people I'm going to see and now I'm just sitting here crying and crying. Good thing its a 3 hour drive.