My Story (2)

[Sunflyer]

The latest:

W had second round of cosmetic surgery. Unlike the first, which had at least some additional benefits, I see this one as purely for vanity reasons. Had her "flabby" arms liposuctioned as well as a breast reduction and lift. Except for today, she has been out of her office for going on four weeks. The incisions on both arms have become infected, and she is now being treated for that. I am so glad that I am not a vain person.

Any self-esteem issues I may have had in the past pale before what she must have. Cosmetic surgery + OM = band aids over what appears to be a troubled soul. Since being off from work, she sleeps on the couch, is glued to her phone, or spends time with OM. That's basically her life.

Meanwhile, I continue working and moving ahead with my life and plans for my future. When I am out doing things, it is often for hours at a time. I say nothing about where I am going, and she typically doesn't challenge me (nor does she have any right to, as I see it).

I have already made plans to spend Thanksgiving at my sister's. I haven't informed W of this and won't until she brings up the holiday. And when she does bring it up, I won't tell her where I'm going (although she will probably figure it out). Because of her surgery, I doubt Thanksgiving will be at our house as usual. Her brother will probably host it, and since she has completely poisoned my relationship with her family (they want nothing to do with me anymore), neither I nor they will miss being together.

As I believe I mentioned earlier, I suspect her family not only knows about OM but approves of the relationship. And I now suspect our sons know about it too. None of this falls under my definition of setting a good role model for them. I'd say the odds are better than 50-50 that he will be at the Thanksgiving table that I'll be missing from.

I have minimal interactions with her. Today she discussed her doctor visit and S14's school progress. Total discussion time about ten minutes, which qualifies as unusually chatty.

I have some more financial info to submit to my L. I have no idea if she's moved forward on any of hers. I will be honest: at this point, I am looking forward to a separation agreement and being under a different roof from her. Her actions tell me that she has no respect for me at all. I feel more hopeful about my future by the day. And I know I am worth a better future than what I am living now.