I have been keeping my focus where it needs to be best I can and improving at it. Work has been going well and I’m thankful. So far so good with my follow up medical appointments.
There haven’t been any other changes made to financial arrangements with W (I previously mentioned that at this time we both now contribute equally 50:50 to mortgage and matrimonial home expenses with each of us individually being responsible for our own gas and groceries etc). W hasn’t agreed to formal child support at this time. I don’t plan on initiating any other change or responding to Ws ideas of separating assets without the guidance report I am awaiting from L. So far again this is reasonable especially with my healthy progress gradually increasing my work resulting in a gradual increase in income.
This week has been really good. I got work done on my house outside of work hours. Doing well here at home with S. Dancing last night was great. I have managed times of overwhelm (thinking about how much work I have still to do on myself, my home, my return to full work capacity schedule in time and maybe on my marriage - choosing to put that one out of mind quickly in my goal to keep detaching) with help of therapy and my improved mental and physical health.
I have been having some contemplation and realizations forming as I have been going about this week. Not fully formed thought even.
I’m going to be ok. I’m pretty ok now even. Not figured it all out and not there yet.
In fact I am more settled at the moment not having it all figured out and sitting in the discomfort and uncertainty. More to come.
