Not Lost Anymore!Being the best version of ME!

[Sunflyer]

Oh he knows I am more than happy to have a good time without him, both socially and with bedroom toys. I’ve even bought new lingerie and he’s noticed ( sober not drunk)

Good for you. I say again...GOOD FOR YOU. Enjoy and whether he notices or not does not matter. If he does notice, maybe it gives him a few thoughts on what he is missing out on.

I think a lot of his projections are just his own insecurity and self issues that he isn’t conscious of at the moment. Maybe never will be

Yep.

I am dreading the absolute emotional mess I will be when he gets on that plane for “ good” . It’s almost the door closing for good in my mind and I still held hope he would get himself together first
Oh well one day at a time I guess

I have been thinking about my separation. I never thought I'd say this, but I am actually starting to look forward to it. I think frequently about being without her and starting the new chapter. If she feels her new boy toy will be the solution to all her problems, let her find out without me supporting her habit.