Not Lost Anymore!Being the best version of ME!

[Pattnee5]

Thanks D makes complete sense with what you are saying and so true the moments are fleeting. It certainly takes enormous strength to remain calm. I do believe my truths I also know who I am now. I think I had lost myself for quite a while mixed up in a relationship that really was not what it should be for the last few years. It’s nice to finally find myself in ways again. I don’t think they are as much change as they are parts of me that had gone missing or been dormant for a while.

I think H has a long way to go but you are so right he isn’t even remotely ready to open the door on big emotional talks. If he has started a conversation or anything remotely resembling a talk on feeling he jams up the walls come up he becomes incredibly awkward and shuts down and usually walks out. Change is all for me and only me. Sometimes we get sucked back into their drama but I do know that H opinion of me shouldn’t matter anymore. Thanks D for the words. I think H is a long way off anything or any progress here. Unfortunately I think unless his alcohol consumption changes he will forever be in the fog