This has been driving me crazy!!! Good days and bad days. Well yesterday we were packing the house up more. Been rough doing that I felt. She came home and I was working away and in a great mood. She noticed and asked how my day was. Good convo there. But we wound up taking a load to donate. She jumped in the car to go with me. So me being dumb asked why she was coming since I wasn't able to ride with her the last few times to drop her stuff off. She said she would get out and I told her no I was simply joking. So we rode to drop the stuff off. On the way back I asked her what changed from her being nice to the last week of being more cold. She said she was pissed because I asked for more time for the D (30 days) and then also scheduled for couples counseling last week after she told me she didn't want to do it. I didn't expect her to come but wanted to extend tht invitation. I tried explaining to her why I asked for a little time to process everything and I didn't even have an attorney at the time. She wasn't even trying to listen. Just upset. So I left it alone. I tried to validate her feelings and recognize how I could see this would make her upset and that was never my intention. Awkward silence driving together.
Well when we got home there were some people (neighbors relatives before it hit the market) wanting to see the house which was supposed to occur Friday instead of Thursday. So we asked for 15 minutes and did a quick clean. They asked us to give them a tour of the house. Crazy thing is the W asked me to not say anything unless they asked. Well during the tour I actually got along great with the potential buyers. Probably even more so then her. She was more business motivated. It felt she cared more about selling the house instead of making the potential buyers feel like it could be a home. But I noticed she was watching me and kept smiling some as to show she approved. After they left we both were relieved from the craziness. She said thank you multiple times. Told her she is welcome. I asked if she wanted to grab some lite dinner to relax for a minute. She denied. Well she left last night to go to a friend's kids event (what she told me). So I did my thing. She came home and asked me to come downstairs to discuss something. I was in bed at three time watching the game. But I went and she was fresh out of the shower with her robe on. We were talking about financials stuff and her brother's deck which I'm supposed to help with. I told her that I didn't want to foot the house bills if she is deciding to move out early. She was upset cause her share would leave her broke to do both. I told her she had the option to stay here and wait till the house closes. She wasn't a happy camper but I'm not taking that on when this is her decision. She came back upstairs for something after I already came back up. So I tried pursuing her and seeing if maybe there was any chance of cake. Stupid me I know. She turned me down and thanked me the offer. Off to bed I went. Was thrown off her being in her robe and being nice and just giving off that sexiness vibe. Gets to me since we were having cake in the regular pre BD and even some after BD.
So this morning she came up while I was getting out of the shower and ready. She asked about borrowing a suitcase because she is spending the weekend at her friend's house (who I know) where they doing the Halloween party that we were supposed to do Saturday night. She decided to do Friday as well since she works over there and she doesn't usually like being here and was going to do church on Sunday with her boss/friend (boss suggestion to help clear her head as the W didn't go to church usually). Think she just tried to be out of the house as well. Didn't have a problem with it or say anything about it. Well back to her standing there staring me up and down. She was in her robe of course again. She was being a tease. She grabbed my shirt before I could put it in. Told her I thought we weren't touching. She said we aren't . But she stared for quite awhile. Wasn't sure how to feel about it. I'm still attracted to her. She knows this. She is holding that. Got my head all messed up from it. But she left after a few minutes of staring and I went on to finish my day. She left and didn't even use the suitcase. Said she didn't need it after all. She looked good though when she left as she had for awhile .She has every day since this has gone down. And hell even before then. But then again she usually does dress nicer typically
Well day went on and got a few texts from her about normal stuff regarding the D and how to separate things and what not. Been doing some GAL today with friends which has been great. But messed up completely tonight. Sent her a text saying that I know I wasn't supposed to text her this type of stuff but couldnt help but think of her in that robe this morning undressing me with her eyes and the things I wanted to do. So Yea I totally blew it there. She responds to any other text usually or conversation. But when it comes to anything cake related she has cut that out. I get it. She pulls back from that part and full steam ahead on D and house selling. How do I stop this?? I think it will be easier when she moves out and isn't here anymore and u can get on with my life as well. Just dunno how to turn the tables so to speak. The whole cake is driving me crazy and I think she knows it! Ahhh!!!
