Hey Card - All those things are tough and a lot to manage. Those kids are going to need the "best" you possible under the circumstances. It is understandable that you feel frustrated and need to vent, plus mourn. I'm glad you're expressing all of this here. It keeps me thinking about how the only person we can control is ourselves: how we choose to feel, respond to these events, and hopefully create peace for ourselves as best as possible. It stinks how our partner's choices can impact or influence our goals. We're (censored) if we let them in; we risk a lonely path if we seal them out. I hope you have a counselor, friend, or others you can lean on in-person and that the feelings your feeling now pass quickly. You know we'll be here as needed too.
