Second roller coaster ride (part 3)

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2 months since BD and this week is by far the hardest week so far. Crushed right now. I miss W, I'm pissed I've had 2 kids and never got to share a normal parental moment (mom and dad together enjoying their development as loving parents) with either of them past the age of 2, I'm dreading another 7 years of constantly juggling child schedules with 2 different women, I hate the fact that D11 and S1 are going to spend less than 1/2 of their remaining childhoods with each other, I'm back to thinking about W with another man, I'm pissed thinking about the lies W has told about me to friends and family, I hate that I'm losing my in-law family who I've been closer to than my actual family. Just really going through a low time and I can't wait for this holiday season to be over already.