She told me that it was 2019. When I told her "I don't know if I can do this anymore and I have to decide if I can do this with her or need to move on". She said that broke her because she never in a million years expected me to ever say anything like that. She said I was her world and she never imagined me not being there. She said that she tried to get past it and COVID happened and it just kind of went dormant and felt like maybe she would be able to get past it. She said when she told me that the way I dealt with it hurt her as well, that I kind of blew it off like she was over reacting. But she brought up the panic attack she had in 2021. It was pretty bad and lots of hyperventilating and crying and screaming for me to not leave her. She was begging me. I didn't know where it was coming from at the time, and realize it now. Told her I was here for her and not going anywhere. She said she felt like after COVID though that things got worse and there were other minor things said that hurt her. But she said her switch and she knew was when last month we were at a friend's wedding (on my birthday). We were dancing for the anniversary song too see how long people make it up there. She said she loved dancing with me but something clicked in her and she felt bad for all the women still up there that have dealt with years of sweeping stuff under the rug. And she didn't want to be that woman. That she wasn't going to let the wound just keep hurting and she needed to cut the source of the wound for her to heal.
Is there truth here to what she is saying? What's your perspective? Not in general rather of these specific events she listed.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
