My Story (2)

[Sunflyer]

Thanks Kind. I am very sympathetic to option #2. Not sure it's something I can practically do at the moment. I am 99% committed that I am going to out her in this. Use it like an ace up my sleeve. I don't know what MWD says about this; I should pull out the book and see. Perhaps "outing" isn't in line with DB practices, but...

My reaction to this has been...odd. Two nights ago I couldn't sleep, and the nights of broken sleep are something that had stopped long ago. Should I feel like crying, screaming, or putting holes in the walls? Because I don't. It's painful, of course, but I feel oddly vindicated. She was the emphatic, pious one who loved to preach fidelity in marriage and reminded me of it multiple times over the years. I just kept my mouth shut and lived it. And am still living it. You'd have to go back to 1996--a year and a half before I met her--to find me in bed with a woman other than her.

From what I gather, people often take a hit to their self-worth because of this. I feel like my stock just went up.