Don't even know what to think. She came home tonight with her S17. I've been in his life since he was in diapers (2). She told him with me there, that we are getting a divorce. Tht we fell out of love with each other. And that we are being nice to each other and respectable. That these things just happen. That she will be living on her own with him and our older dog and I will be taking the younger dog. But she will bring him around to see the dog. And that I lived him and want to remain in his life, which is all true! That I wanted to see him graduate next year. That we are selling the house. He is a strong kid. Smart and straight A's. But has had a very rough child hood at his father's house. This broke him. He said this was the only consistency in his life and now that is gone. Said he will be okay but just needed time. She plans on taking him to dinner to talk with him on the side because they have a strong relationship. And it's sort of their thing to do dinner or lunches or whatever. As soon as he left, she started talking to me. No emotion for me, didn't really expect it. She asked if I was good with what she said and I was but wish she would have told him that she wanted this and not me. But not fair to ask or even bother with. We both agreed that was tough on him and that broke him a little bit. She then got into conversation about the lawyer and where I was on that. I told her I'm still deciding on that and have one in mind I plan on using. She asked what's holding me back. Told her I just needed a little time to get things together and over to him and it's only been 10 days since she told me all of this so it's all moving so fast. Told her I would let her know once I decided. Lawyer I spoke to today suggested I move quick since she is agreeing to lower spousal support and we are in agreement on everything. He said she may change her mind and want more if you hold out on her and not give her this. So I'm just torn on all of it. I don't want to get her upset and pay more money in the end if she isn't even wanting to try to make this work. Which she shows no signs of even wanting. She has been civil and still talks to me about stuff. But she isn't interested in talking about us. I haven't brought it up in days. She lives in the basement as of last night. All her stuff is out of the master bedroom. So should I just go ahead with the dissolution at this point? Or should I drag it a little bit and maybe stick with the 180 & Dim/dark? Just not even sure. I have been upbeat around her and dressing nicer and not mentioning us and following the 37 rules. But she may be one of the ones that isn't interested and maybe we can reconcile later if anything at all?
