Second roller coaster ride (part 3)

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Grief recovery class was emotional but great last night. We're down to 5 people (originally 8). Those that have stayed have grown a lot closer, though. We really opened up our lives last night sharing our loss history charts. Every person said something like "I've only told 2 people this in my life" for one of their losses.

Next week is a relationship history graph. We can pick anyone in our life and chart our relationship. The major highs and lows. I'm picking my dad.

After class, visited one of my best friends and his gf. We've had a standing appointment to hang out after class each Thursday since they live near the class location. Had some great conversations with them last night. Also, I heard from my youngest BIL. FIL explained to me a few weeks ago that he tends to shell up for a while whenever he goes through trauma, so I wasn't surprised he hadn't reached out. He just left a very loving text and shared a song with me from a band we both love. He also mentioned he's furious with W, and I've seen a couple other texts from extended in-laws that have said the same. I know it doesn't really carry much weight for our situation as W is doing what she wants to and listening/talking to the people that are validating her.

I have another busy weekend ahead of me, some fun activities. But I'm trying to learn from my last couple of weekends that were filled with wall-to-wall fun plans with friends. By the time Monday came around, all of the negative emotions of the separation had built up and hit me all at once. I'm going to try to find time a couple times each day to reflect and process. We'll see how Monday feels at that point.