My Story (2)

[Sunflyer]

So here is where my head is at nowadays. Comments are welcome, but I'm really just looking to journal some thoughts here for my own sake, and to crystallize the ideas. Feel a need to get this stuff out.

A future R with W is untenable given her current mindset. In the past, we've been on the same page regarding the big stuff: fidelity, children, each other. Now, a crisis has occurred, and we are viewing it from diametrically opposed mindsets. I am viewing it as a crucible through which growth can occur, and we could come out the other side stronger and better for having gone through it. She is viewing it as time to wave the white flag.

I've invested many years of my life in doing things that are hard. I've accomplished things that would defeat 95% of people. "Hard" is my friend. Nothing worth getting in my life has taken less than years to achieve. (On at least one occasion, it took decades). I don't say "I can't" or "This is too difficult." I hang on like a bulldog until I get it.

Someone who doesn't think what should be the most important relationship in their life is worth fighting for isn't someone I can live with successfully. I have made mistakes. I have flaws. I will work to correct them, but I will also embrace them, because they make me human.

I can see in my mind the better life I want and that I deserve. It may be with a partner, it may be alone, but I am looking ahead to it, because I am absolutely worthy of it.

I won't be dragged down by "I can't" or "I won't" or anyone who thinks it's impossible.