Learning the ropes 2

[Pattnee5]

Goodness me MA. What an update. With our paths so similar with our XH and their midlife crisis states, they seem to be both following such chaotic paths. Initially I always thought maybe your path would be easier for me to deal with and recover from( the OW and the blatant MLC actions as opposed to the self combusting reclusive MLC who runs away), but now I honestly don’t know which is worse. It sounds like you are handling it absolutely amazingly while H crumbles. It sounds like he’s hitting that rock bottom that they all need to hit. Hopefully he does his work. You should be so incredibly proud. I think this is why the vets drum detachment into us from day 1.The more I don’t want to be around XH anymore the more he tries to reach out. I actually look at him now and feel nothing like I used to. Now I just feel absolutely empty, and annoyed that I allowed him to hurt me so much. I don’t even think I’m attracted to him anymore. He has lost all appeal on me now. I bet you feel exactly the same. We almost just feel sorry for them in a nurturing way. I couldn’t even imagine being intimate with him again because I just don’t have that desire or attraction like before. So many nasty comments and hurtful words finally did their number on me. You keep your head high! You deserve the world. And I would say your H had a few years of alot of hard work to win you back. We need to be won back now. They don’t just get to shelve us for when their plan goes off course. We deserve the best of the best