I get it that you have some core issues to address. We all do. Either you face your fear or let fear control you.
Whats your biggest fear (I am not looking for an answer, just for you to think about)? Face it head on. Slay the dragon. Then face the next smaller dragon and slay it. It should be easier. Keep killing each one. Your dragons are different than mine, but you got to keep killing them or them become big and overwhelming.
regards,
R2C
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