Feeling sad today. At the beginning of August I realized there was no relationship to continue standing for. I’m proud of the way I handled those long, terrible first 8 months, but I no longer saw healthy reason to carry on. At that point I offered to help with the divorce she claimed to want so badly and encouraged mediation. Of course it would have been to logical for W to have welcomed this offering. Seems that is not in the cards. She say she needs a lawyer for security and to protect her rights. I always knew this was a possible outcome but it’s still so sad that she is so far gone that she thinks I am out to get her in some way. You just can’t win in these situations it seems.