Way Less Lost!! Pt 4

[Pattnee5]

Thanks Card, unfortunately he can’t contain his emotions, at all. They are all bubbling away under the surface and they come out in the most bizarre way. I guess this happens with years of bottling everything up when once upon a time you used to talk about feelings. The MLC man in front of me is a really sad,broken man and I do hope he hits that bottom to start working through his crisis purely for his own sake because this isn’t him.
I know I’ll be ok, more than ok. I already am. I just think how far I have come since BD and how much I am getting stronger within myself( as H sinks more and more as a broken person).
Db was the best thing to ever happen to me and this forum. I would never be where I am today. The hurt is still there, the words still sting but just nowhere near as much. As a woman I have heard some really horrible things said to me in the last 9
Months. I know we are told to believe nothing they say, they are just trying to tear you down too because they feel so incredibly low. It still does sit with you to hear those words.

I think H is making the worst mistake of his life with this move but it’s his mistake to make. He has made his bed he now has to lie in it. To relocate abroad in itself is a mental toll even in the best headspace. The worst part is he is leaving one “work from home” role to go there and also “work from home”. There is no office, there is no meeting people and reintegrating into society or the world. But it is what it is.
My emotions the last two days have calmed down. That sense of “ I am not enough or worth the fight” have subsided now. I have been surrounding myself with amazing people who have just really picked me up. Now, no matter what is thrown at me I know I can get through anything.