Way Less Lost!! Pt 4

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Pattnee, dont be too hard on yourself. As you point out, you cant expect to be perfect every step. You had the itch to let out your anger, you did, and you realize it didnt make you feel better. That’s data for you on your journey. Imagine doing that all of the time. You’d be miserable, strung along emotionally, and your detachment and grief process would take so much longer. I know people that spent 20 years mad after their D. So much life wasted. That’s not going to be you.

I havent followed you every step of the way, so I’m not going to give advice here. What have you and the vets discussed about boundaries, going dark, etc? It seems like H is having his cake and eating it too. Comes and goes as he pleases. Living his independent life while referring to going to make money for you and the kids. Have you ever talked here about cutting him out of your day to day? Again, I’m asking, not advising. I know your kids still see him. I just know that emotional and physical distance would help you deal with these emotions more on your terms.

Just some food for thought. I hope you’re having a great day when you read this