Limbo really isn’t fun - and transforming myself and deciding on course in the context of limbo (in other words, exercising my agency and taking back control over me) is my task. I greatly respect your process and strong decisive action for what’s best for you.
I am presently engaged in considering my next steps. To own my power over me. Prioritize looking after myself and our family. Protect our family and assets. Keep the house. Get back to work.
You can be proud of your strength and resilience.
“Unfortunately it’s too late for my STBXH. It really does suck. The man I knew never would have done this and would have been mortified to leave his kids. When he now says words like “ I hate my life I hate who I have become” yet his pea-sized brain decides the only solution is to run. The stubbornness astounds me.” This is also what my W has done. And I accept that. Yes I have grief - a lot and Im in process with that. But I must move forward and there is a lot at stake for me to make sure that I do.