Way Less Lost!! Pt 4

[Pattnee5]

Hi Kind. He’s “moving” to America. Supposedly for a couple year contract although he keeps saying “ if I don’t like it I’ll just come home “ he hates his current role but can’t downgrade as he likes the money so is stepping sideways within the company. That promotion 2 years ago was the worst thing to ever happen to him he couldn’t cope with stress or being a very high position. I feel that was one of the triggers.

So yes it does have reciprocal rights and I’m also making sure with my lawyer too. Regardless I am asking for more of my fair share of equity and assets etc to safeguard myself in case he blindsides me anymore
So far he’s playing ball,everything very amicable and friendly saying he will give more etc. Guilt maybe? Who knows what’s going through his head to be honest. Maybe not much.

He looked like rubbish today admitted he hasn’t slept had a bad day etc. I just wished him a good night as he left. His face his emotions they are all over the shop lately since our conversation. I feel like I am watching my teenage daughter go through her monthly hormonal cycle. It really does feel like I have a third child with hormonal issues

This will either be the best thing for him or not. I can’t stop his current destructive path. Even though I know he’s just running as fast and as far as he can. I can only hope this is his awakening to find himself sort through his storm and realise what he has run away from.
Regardless whether he does miraculously recover and return without the MLC alien living inside of him or not it’s all on him. I am the one still standing for me for this family and for the kids. He’s the one that has to live with the running and the guilt.

Thanks for the encouragement Kind. Your support along the last few months has really got me where I am. I think you even mentioned a while back that this may just be exactly what he needs to save himself and potentially save whatever is left. He needs to live this reality, get it out of his system etc
I’ve realised if he tried to come back into the relationship now he is only half attempting and would never give more than 10% and will likely repeat it in a few years time. I need to let him live the reality he currently wants to see he has lost the best things in his life. It really is sad to see someone fall.

Regardless I am doing good I feel pretty strong actually. I have a IC session coming up again, the end of the year is fast approaching so there’s a lot of events and parties coming up. I’m trying to keep myself as busy as possible too. I think once we sign everything and the house is sold etc I may look at a week away just on my own to a women’s retreat. Might be nice to do something for me and on my own