Way Less Lost!! Pt 4

[Pattnee5]

Had a great trip with the kids for a few days. Super busy and packed in alot. Coming home with a very full heart( and slightly exhausted).
H messaged a fair bit asking about D14 comp and how everyone is going. I responded politely but we were so busy I didn’t even give him much thought.
A little bit sad and full of dread now heading home and knowing that the table discussion to sort out legal separation is coming. It seems so final. I feel a bit of sadness In my heart today knowing I am choosing now to no longer stand and “wait”. My heart does ache for th man I love, despite me knowing staying in this limbo is damaging for me and I’m doing the right thing. It still makes it hard. His words still sting in the back of my mind “ I can’t see myself holidaying with you or lying back in our bed together”. They are some pretty damaging words. Despite me being good and strong and stable I think there’s need some damage done that’s for sure .
Anyway the trip was fantastic
This week won’t be fun but I will find my courage