Second roller coaster ride (2)

[Pattnee5]

The typical “re-writing history” I couldn’t believe the amount of lies coming out of my H mouth about our past. It serves their purpose now remember they are the victim 🙄. I’m sure my H is telling his family of all the wonderful dad stuff he is doing ( when in reality he sat on his butt for the whole Father’s Day and played video games after telling me he was taking them out for the day)
I know how hard it is for oneself to not let that bother you. It really cuts deep and burns. As long as you know your truth and your worth, don’t let that external noise of W bring you down or alter your path in your own healing. You are doing so well. One day at a time don’t even think ahead right now. The bad moods don’t last. They are moments in the day. Try to find something you can do to lift your mood when they come about. A walk, lying in the sunshine, a long bath, how about start running? Nothing better than something like a long term goal. Run a half marathon? Give yourself a daily purpose that breaks the moods. I found just even putting on loud music and dancing around the bedroom singing with D14 was so therapeutic. Ground yourself. Walk barefoot on the grass on the beach. Keep moving forward and ignore the noise