Second roller coaster ride (2)

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I dont think she’s planned much of any of this, except for maybe waiting for her raise. She probably doesnt even realize she will have a monthly car insurance payment in a couple of months. She has never made a budget in her life.

I have no evidence of an EA. It’s just the immediate exit and getting an apartment. Also hanging out with friends I’ve met like once after years of hanging out with all of our friends together. I’m trying not to dwell on it

She went to my best friend’s parents house last night to see them and him while he was in town. She told more lies about how she has had S1 1/2 the time (try 2 nights in 2 weeks). He said her social media feed is pictures if her and S1, but they were taken days/weeks ago. She’s lying to anyone that challenges her, which he did.

From what I’ve seen and heard from W, and what my friend told me, it seems like she just doesnt want to be a W or a full time mom. This was a woman that wanted 4 kids like 2 years ago. We have 1 healthy kid who is so so easy, and she cant handle it, I guess. I dont know if this is a phase/crisis as she deals with worsening MS? Maybe she wants to live every other week free of responsibilities so she can do whatever she wants, whenever she wants while she’s still physically able to do so? I dont think it’s going to be the escape she thinks it will be since her root cause is not the stress, but how she naturally handles it.

I have no control and am trying to let go. Just left the gym and I feel good for the moment. I have wallowed while swiping my phone a lot this weekend. I need to avoid that, especially when I’m in a bad mood.