Thanks so much DnJ. It feels like this is going to be a test for me. I can already feel the pull of needing to look after him. This isnt love & very much about co dependency. It's interesting how strong the feelings are. I also notice guilt about him suffering when I could easily alleviate some of his pain. Of course I understand these are just thoights and emotions & when I step back from them, I dont want to be the person who is responsible for repairing. Tgis has got to come from him. I like the 6 months but also think that he wont work half as hard as I have in the past 6 months.
We fly home tonight. I've already received a message asking if he can meet me to talk as he's got a lot he wants to say. I think I'm going to respond by saying I'm not ready to talk yet but maybe in a few weeks. I just feel I want to come back from my holiday, re establish my rputines that work for me before facing his mess. I'm aware I need to be really clear about what my boundaries are & I may benefit from writing these down, particularly in these heightened emotional states.
