Second roller coaster ride (2)

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I think morning are hard because you have come off no sleep, wake up and the mind is buzzing. By the end of the day you’re too exhausted to care. Well that’s how it was for me in those early days. I’m not sure about best ways for men to deal with those repressed emotions. As a female all we do is talk talk talk. Nothing stopping you talking. It’s better than bottling them up.

I'm sleeping ok, I'm just miserable when I wake up. The meditation app is helping to at least slow the train down. Also, I don't have a problem opening up. In fact I tend to overshare. But I've found 2-3 people (sister, male cousin, best friend) that have been open ears to me. My best friend talked me off the ledge yesterday afternoon.

I have not had a real cry about this yet, which is concerning to me. I bawled my eyes out in D#1. Clearly I haven't let the knot loose yet.