Have you bought the bike Rock? Sounds like something you're really interested in for you. I say go for it!!
I'm just back from pantomime rehearsals (not sure if panto is a british thing?). I am the least theatrical person you could come across. I'm very self conscious & very self critical but wanted to push myself in my GAL activity goal of improving confidence. I absolutely love it now. Not the acting (I still hate that) but the local community people are all amazing and it really is so funny doing it & I've met a bunch of amazing people.
Put your reservations and thoughts to one side & push yourself to do something just for you. Not for W or S. Just for you.
It’s funny what we decide to do during this time. I am commemorating my new beginning with a tattoo to remind me daily that I am strong and this experience is about self growth
M:41 H:48 T:20. M:16.5 BD: 15/12/22 -moved out 17/3/2023
Ok as I’m starting to write this post I’m thinking ahead to DB which I know to be continue to GAL and remain focused on my principles, values and goals.
Youngest D is in the process of moving out into a great place. I’m excited for her and have been communicating my belief in her and that I see this as a great step for her. Us men (S’s and I) are taking her out to dinner tonight to celebrate this milestone for her.
W has been connecting more herself with youngest S and D without me making it happen and she has been providing support to D with her move, helping her with some packing etc.
Yesterday W tried to call me and then texted asking me to call her. I did. She wanted to talk to me about her conversation with eldest D - she had just talked with her on the phone. They have been very disconnected and W hadn’t talked with her since before her trip. She said it was a very difficult conversation and and that D was rude to her and W ended up hanging up. W also voiced to me a lot of other stress: her lack of R with eldest S, W says she has no friends, she hates her job, land there’s a lot of tension/animosity in her family. She showed a lot of distressing emotion with tears on the call. I validated her emotional state gently and expressed that I see that she is going though a lot of really hard things. And I didn’t try to fix anything for her.
It was a big call and it’s hard for me even to type it out. There was a lot to it. As I was saying I needed to go, youngest S knocked on my door. I came out still on the phone. W and S said hi. S and I planned to go for an outing. S invited W to join.
S and I went to a recreation spot and W and her mom met us there after S and I had played for a while. We greeted W and MIL. They were both friendly. W seemed fragile. She said she was spent. S and W had some time together. It was fairly brief (20 minutes?) that they were there with us.
W brought up with me in front of her mom an idea of making some together plans (going on a trip together to visit some friends). I said, “Maybe. I’ll have to see.”
