That’s really good Card, really good to realise you shouldn’t be drinking. I was the same we can’t numb the emotions and it’s a depressant. I would have been a mess if I even tried to drink those early days. Now I enjoy it again. Also great for you to realise now is the time for you to do the work on you. W has to do her work on her own before she can even think of doing the work on you together. We can’t fix them they need to dig deep and help themselves. If they manage to do it then maybe, just maybe, we have a shot a reconciliation. But when they are in their turmoil they aren’t capable of dealing with the R. They don’t have the capacity it’s just another ball in the air for them to try and juggle. Believe me it’s taken me a while to realise this. We have to just let them be in their turmoil and figure themselves out. In the meantime make yourself the best version of you. I have managed to grow so much in 8 months, priorities change I feel lighter and happier than I have been in at least a year. It’s a great feeling
M:41 H:48 T:20. M:16.5 BD: 15/12/22 -moved out 17/3/2023
