I’m back :(

[Card29]

In regard to “lifelong” friends the good thing is it’s never too late to form new friendships. My H is in a very silly position whereby he has no friends other than a handful of school friends from 30 years ago. Even though he has lived in our state for 20 years and had “ friends” along the way from work, he lets those friendships go. Friendships take work to form and maintain. I guess as with everything it’s put in the too hard basket. He is also an introvert so I suppose that’s out of his comfort zone. He would have benefitted from friends now while he goes through his MLC

It’s never too late to make new friends. Find a local hobby, maybe a sport? Or something that involves groups of people whereby friendships can form? There’s always so many things, there’s running groups if you like being fit, or else what about other dads in your community with young kids? Don’t put so much pressure on yourself right now to change everything at one. Allow the emotions and grief to flow and don’t look more than a day ahead. Wake up every day and find 3 positive things to do just for you. On days I am busy it can even just be something simple like a bath, or putting on my favourite music while I finish dinner.

I undersold my local support group a little. I do have friends, I have just not been around them much lately with everything going on at home. I'm reaching back out and will be fostering those relationships more intentionally.

Take a deep breath Card. The day is yours to make of it as you choose. Get out and get sunshine, try and eat something, go for a walk. Make sure you do 3 positive things for Card today. The nausea feeling was alway the thing I hated most. You’ve got this. Believe in yourself

I woke up early to help D11 get ready for school and showed her to the bus stop. Then I laid back in bed. At this point I was still feeling ok. Then I started looking around the room and realizing again what was going on. I got that unsettling feeling, which turned to anxiety, which turned to nausea, which escalated and intensified. Started sweating. Actually vomited, which I hardly ever do. But that helped. That process squeezed out some tears, too. Even though it wasn't emotional, sad crying, it felt like a small cry haha. I felt better after that and got S1 up to start our day.

Now I'm at work and have to find a way to focus some today. It will help me, plus I'm way behind on work. I've told my boss what's going on and he's very supportive. I've been in a rut at work, but I am thankful for how supportive of a company it is.

And regarding getting out, getting sunshine, walking, etc. I agree those things will be huge helps. Unfortunately they might be off the table the next 2 days. Temperatures are at near record levels with very high humidity. It actively stinks outside with how nasty it is. Thankfully we get relief on Friday with a bit of a cool down.