Woke up with that “oh that wasn’t just a bad dream” feeling. Did not miss that from D#1.
Just feel sick this morning. Cant focus at work. Almost scared to see D11 later.
I also am reliving the pain of D#1, too. Not sure why that’s coming back for the first time in many years.
And I need to find new support IRL. My mom was my main support last time and this time she was a thorn in my M.
I’ve had a lot of close friends move far away in the last two years. My friends lately have been people that drink a lot and guys at work I play golf with but dont share much personal stuff with. I just feel very lonely
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
