Reaching out can sometimes be the hardest part of the journey. I'm glad you are having breakfast with your son.
One step at a time and just breathe! Try to keep an open mind when you go to the meetings. Sometimes it takes a couple of meetings before things begin to "click".
I know it's been extremely hot in your area and you are wise to wait until later in the fall to venture to the zoo.
Hang in there!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
