A little less lost? Pt 3

[Pattnee5]

Thanks DnJ. Yes I do feel a bit indifferent some days. Are you saying don’t act on indifference as it’s a passing moment? I know the emotions will return and I’ll confinue to cycle.
I had a tea with a friend tonight and she asked if I still love him
And I do still love him and still hold our glimmers of hope but at the same time am no longer scared or fearful of it ending and starting my next journey. I realised now I was stuck in fear of the unknown. Now I am no longer scared. I love being alone and making my own decisions, and Clarity has returned to see the whole picture and how poor his behaviour was leading up to BD for me and my kids lives.
You are very right if I am torn I should do nothing and not just push it to have an end. I didn’t really think that doing nothing was doing something. I feel a lot of my reasons to push and end it is because of the external noise and pressure I get from family to cut ties and it and start again.