So I've been reading more about other people's situations on these forums and other sources, it has come up that MLCers who's journey gets interrupted (as I believe H's did but not 100% sure about it) and it is said that when they resume their crisis, or go back in, that it will be far worse than the initial crisis. I have read about HB's journey (God rest her soul) with her husband, he went through for 2 years and then again for another 7 years. But, truly, how many others have gone down that road and how exactly do we know that this is the way it has to happen? H's initial crisis period was 2 1/2 years, roughly, and we are looking at 10 years between then and now. He was raging then. He even kicked in the bedroom door at one time (I was inside) screaming that even my much younger nieces had more accomplished than I had. I remember crying on my bed, asking God for help, and that is where I experienced His Hug for the first time, he was comforting me. He was the one who always told me to wait and be patient, so I obeyed.
H has been much calmer this time around, no violence or extremes like that, he's turned more inward. But I also do not know what stage he is in. 2 to 3 months ago he was more angry and drinking an awful lot. I had to brace myself because that's when he got really ugly and saying things that he usually would never say out loud. He shared a lot of information then. Now he doesn't talk, and I also do not ask! He also isn't drinking nearly as much. He gets very irritable, zero patience, but he isn't mean to me. Sometimes he even picks up a soda for me on his way home or my favorite chocolate. He still sleeps in the same bed with me. There's a mile between us, but he's in it!
I know this can all change over time and he can be on the couch tomorrow. He's been wanting to get the spare bedroom ready for him but has not mentioned it again. I also know I shouldn't worry about all that and get my mind off of him but I can't help but wonder what is going to happen next.