A little less lost? Pt 3

[Pattnee5]

Thanks kind for your words
I have been having counselling since Bd and I have been doing well and she’s amazing. I am generally great but but I just have moments like this where I feel like I fall in a heap and believe his blame shifting of me. It’s getting far far less now. It’s actually hasn’t happened for a while so today surprised me.( I have come down with a virus too so I don’t know if I am just feeling generally low and rubbish too)
Hence why I wanted to post to write to down and also know if I have been wrong and bad as least you guys call me out on my rubbish. I guess I’m just disappointed in myself.

I’ve generally been really good and strong( DB a lot and doing ok at it ) but then I get moments like this that wash over me.
I know it’s over I know he is not the man I once knew and isn’t good for me but I am just still grieving.I know our relationship is long dead and there isn’t even a pulse left anymore.
I know from this I will learn to be better in my next relationship one day in the future.