thanks for that "wake up call". I agree with what you're saying, my head knows these things but my heart is not quite caught up yet.
He showed me those gummies when they came in the mail, I guess they are for performance, strong heart and muscles, etc. And if he was doing anything with someone he would have to leave the house at some point and he never does. I always know where he is at. For now anyways. He never had OW the first time he was deep in MLC. I am aware that it may happen because he is now open to the idea, but I'll deal with that when the time comes, IF it comes. I don't want to assume it's going to happen because the probability is so high based on data.
I have been trying to focus on anything else but him, and I do feel more level headed when I do not think about him and what comes out of his crazy brain. I got a house full of kids, one adult daughter, one teen son and one grandkiddo and 3 crazy dogs that are treated like our children too, lol. Wouldn't know what to do without them. My son just celebrated his 17th birthday and he is a senior in high school now. Last week we had to go pick out pictures from a senior photo session. He was voted one of the senior faces of his graduating class of 2024, yay! He's gonna be featured in a tv commercial. He looks so handsome in those pictures, I'm so proud of him. Can't believe my baby is graduating next year, I just gave birth to him, lol. Time really flies. I have one question, how do you explain to your 17 year old what is happening to his father? He knows his dad has not been the same lately. I told him that he is going through something and needs time to deal with it. And that none of this is anybody's fault. At times his dad seems like himself and then he's not, that's got to be confusing. Ironically, they are both going through changes just at different life stages. My son is struggling to become an adult and my husband is struggling to become an older version of himself but instead is trying to run back to the good old days. I just feel sad for S because his dad is not able to fully be there for him right now, he can barely handle his own emotions. As I'm writing this I'm listening to S playing the piano. All of Me by John Legend. I love that song. My granddaughter is behind me tugging on me wanting to play barbies. Her Mom had to go to a doctor's appointment. Sigh, alright, gotta cut this short. Thanks for listening.
