A little less lost? Pt 3

[Pattnee5]

Thanks Kind. Yes the clean slate as hard as it is I think is a much easier option. I think H has one foot either side of the line hedging his bets and still in his limbo. I think I was still so emotional wanting to hold on to the house for hope or just in case or to be that lighthouse but in reality it’s me just still grasping at his pant leg waiting. A friend told me he needs to sit on his blister.
As much as I didn’t want to message him today I had to send him a message about our dear dear friends daughter who passed away. She was 12 and extremely close with our son growing up. The message reply was very indifferent and cold. Initially I got a bit frazzled by this, mainly because he never used to lack empathy or emotions like he does now but then I quickly remember “I can’t control him and his thoughts” . Just another realisation that the Alien occupying his body has stripped him.