A little less lost? Pt 3

[Pattnee5]

Thanks Kind.

We aren’t even anywhere near the divorce stage yet, just lawyers and separating legally (accounts, house sale potentially, parental agreement. But I guess divorce comes a year later anyway.)

I have been allowing myself to feel these emotions now without worrying. Tears flowed a lot today I had a bit of a mini meltdown in my Mums arms, just crying and unsure why. Picked myself up dusted myself off, had a bath, went for a walk and felt much better before school pickup. The ghosting from H while he’s away for work isn’t even bothering me I think I am just more so grieving the end of 20 years when it really was amazing, and it’s only been the last year or so since he’s obviously spiralled in MLC mode. It saddens me that we become collateral damage. Anyway I feel better now.

Do I push H to sit down and talk legal separation when he returns? He mentioned it almost a month ago and was going to look over finances but then did nothing. I still want him to do the heavy lifting so he can live with his choices.