I am always trying to not take actions based on feelings but based on logic. But I have never been in such a situation before so it is new and full of emotions. All kind of emotions. I started healing process back in January where I did not know about the affair yet but had a gut feeling that something was not right. When she finally revealed her affair, I had a feeling that something deep inside suddenly died. I was speachless for two days, and after that suprisingly I was able to eat and sleep well again. So I have been working out, lost weight, improved outfit, reading books, doing my stuff and improving myself on every aspect to be able to move on with my life without her and to be ready to place myself on the "market" again. I am not affraid of loosing her because I have already lost her.. I do not have wife at the moment. She belongs to OM. Her body, her heart, her soul. Something that was solely mine. It's gone now. My life did not stop. It continues. I know I am way better than this OM. Not sure If I menioned but I figured out her cell phone pin (I am not proud of that though). So out of curiosity I have checked her conversation with OM and it seems he is insecure, jealous because she often had to assure him about her loyality etc.. So maybe letting time to do the job is not a bad idea I just need to swallow the fact that I am a cuckold at the moment..
