I'm back! (4)

[Terapin]

This whole process is such a whirlwind. Emotions change by the minute sometimes.

I had thoughts about divorce months ago. W BD's me, and I want to work on the M. A month later, I"m fully prepared to move forward with D. Just a few days ago I was looking forward to meeting with the new lawyer and getting the custody agreement signed.

Yesterday and today, after the narcissist comment, as well as her telling people some of the mean and inappropriate things I"ve said to her the last few months, I"m back to feeling pretty bad about all this stuff.

I haven't been a perfect husband. Not by a long shot. But to see it in writing and/or hearing it out loud [censored].

I"m torn on 'manning up' and moving forward with a purpose, or apologizing to her for stuff I may have said in the past. Not that either will make a difference in anything