A little less lost? Pt 3

[Pattnee5]

Ok quick advice needed. H is leaving tomorrow for his “business trip” ( and likely meeting another woman now that my senses have kicked in) he will be away for 10 days. He did a similar massive conference in Jan about 4 weeks after BD and I was still a mess messaging him and trying to call him and he literally ghosted me alot, hardly sent photos or anything or asked about kids even though we were still living together he still had his ring on etc. anyway with this trip coming up all that hurt has resurfaced. I remember how messed I was.( didn’t even know about DR then)
Now with this trip coming up and resurfacing plus my recent revelation that there is a high chance of there being another woman which is why he is going earlier (I’m slightly hurt by this as you can tell)

I guess my question is, do I ghost him and to no contact? I think I know my answer.my gut says not to even respond if he messages( which I don’t think he will) I don’t even want to mesage him, my hurt from January is coming back in full force. Plus my imagination of him lapping it up with someone else .
The kids have their own phones so he can contact them directly rather than asking me.
Also any advice how to calm the imagination on OW? Not confirmed but you guys were right it’s highly likely. H also confessed how much he hates his current job. Typical MLC run away and quit job quit marriage