You need to walk into a new therapists office and declare “My wife has left and is divorcing me, I’m completely broken and entirely dependent/attached to this relationship. I need long-term professional help to detach and move on.”
Until you do that, this ain’t going anywhere. You need to try something DIFFERENT.
Wise words.
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