Hi Joseph, thank you, yes you are right. No point in ruminating about them. And I also believe she does not see this as a cheating.. but hell it is like living in the kingdom of crooked mirrors.. she is still married, she did commitment, it is not like we both are not married so she breaks up with me and moves on.. Deformed personality maybe? or affair fog? I do not know but I can tell you that I do not know her anymore. She was not like this before and I know her for 10 years.. it looks like they have normal relationship already at least from what I have seen in her cell phone... it's disgusting... but it is as it is. You know I have gone throuh those phases like denial, anger...now I am slowly accepting this a a fact.. but did started working on myself even during the time when I did not know about her affair. She was cold as ice and distant, indifferent and during this hard time I started GAL, because I had a gut feeling that something is not right so when maybe divorce comes into the play, I am prepared to move on with or without her..