It's been a crazy few days. Right now, the roofers are tearing off the old roof (2 of 'em, which is why it's a tear off) and pounding like crazy. Sipping coffee and will do my daily Wordle (keeps me sane) after my post here. Fed R and B is making noises of getting up soon (it's 7:30am-ish).
I texted C Tuesday when the roofer told me we are scheduled for today so he could deposit the rest of the money for the balance we owe and he did. Kept it business-like and told him I'll be taking pictures but won't text any to him unless it's unusual or something's wrong. He thanked me. Before I remembered DB and 180, I had been texting pictures of his flowers that he so lovingly nurtured--our garden and yard are flower-filled--because I felt so bad he wasn't here to enjoy the beauty he created. He said I was bothering him. The last few days, the 6feet tall trumpet lilies (this is the first year they reached 6ft and he'd been waiting for this for the last few years) are blooming and--I started to take pix and then, I stopped. F**K him! Maybe the flower pix are a reminder of what he left and my reminding him of it ticks him off--trying to be nice and I get accused of stalking. I planted the cherry tomatoes he loves, oregano that he loves and geraniums in pots that he loves (I planted pink, he usually does red but F**K him). Tomatoes are ripening and we are eating them (they're delicious!), too bad, too sad he isn't here to enjoy.
Our 44th wedding anniversary is August 18. I have been dreading it. We had a huge party for our 25th and an Open House for our 40th---only 4 years ago--and the pictures are SO HAPPY! If you saw the 40th pix you would think we were SO DAMN HAPPY and we were. We've talked about doing a train tour of Scotland for our 45th and were looking forward to begin the planning soon. I am thinking about taking a short trip this year that weekend to LA and going to some concerts at the Hollywood Bowl BY MYSELF of course. I need to decide soon for the best fares but maybe that shouldn't be a concern--if he's living a vacation with his apartment etc., maybe I should just DO IT and F**K him and getting the best fares!
We have a lunch date this weekend, as per our couple's counselor, and I will give him his business insurance bill (comes here, always comes here, with the business insurance) and give him the THIRD speeding ticket he's gotten since he left. The last speeding ticket he's gotten before this was in 1996 (or so)and his speeding is another symptom of his craziness since he left. Will keep the date *light and bright* and will try not to be too snarky but, GEEZ LOUISE, it's getting harder after his nastiness/craziness!
I do believe he's MLC-ing. After reading a LOT here, some of what he's said to me lately has been taken right out of these posts! He joked in one of our early counseling sessions that he's *never* had a MLC, like he has a RIGHT to a MLC. Well, yeah, I guess that's a way to look at it!
