W has gone out of country for a month. She hasn’t told me any details (and I didn’t ask). She did say that she hasn’t told eldest D (said that D would not understand W spending money on herself instead of going to visit D) or S (not on speaking terms with S) about the trip but she has told our 2 youngest.
So a month break. Time being a gift I plan to use it well. Be the lighthouse for my kids. Enjoy myself. Get things done.
A lot of texts and emails from W before she left. Not much at all required a response so none given. Most of it was directive of how she thought I should be more thrifty with spending money and such.
Lots of feelings surfacing for me, some tears and anger and grieving loss.
Will continue to GAL, therapy, follow through on goals and discern my way forward. Answers will emerge.
