Morning all, its been a couple of weeks since I posted. I've been feeling much more content and settled. Getting on with my life with little time spent thinking about H & really enjoying life. I feel happier than I've been in a long time, even before BD and genuinely think that everything that has happened in the last 7 months was meant to be. I hadn't realised how unhappy I'd been in the marriage, I just kept giving to everyone else & had very little left to give to me.
I'm in a bit of a dilemma & would value your thoughts. H contacted me yesterday via text asking if he could meet me today. At the same time, he text our friends (who have supported me through this & been brilliant in guiding me not to fall for his lies). I sat on the message & then replied several hours later saying I was busy till 3pm & would ketchup him know today if I had time to meet. In the meantime, he has met with our friend who has told me his relationship with AP has ended. He told our friend it just fizzled out because he wasn't fully engaged with her. His mind was still with me. I tend to think this is more lies! I'm meeting our friends later to get the full story & I'm also going to message him saying I need time before me & him meet.
This has completely messed with my head. It's been all I wanted for many months. However, I'm not sure it's what I want now. I really do feel my life has been happier without him in it for the past couple of months. I'm in a settled routine, I'm going out & enjoying life. I don't think I even want to take it steady & piece (is that what you call it?). Any thoughts on how I handle meeting up with him? I do genuinely care for him & don't want anything bad to happen to him. I'm also worried that I might make the wrong decision. I just feel I need more time on my own being single.
