I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Sunflyer]

I just don’t know how to find my inner peace with this and the fact he has vaulted up his heart and mind and would rather just let us go instead of digging deep and working on stuff. He always praised my determination and the way I helped drive him and inspire him. Now he has put up a bullet proof fort and I feel like such a failure

You described well how it feels. I feel the same and find it just as hard to understand as you. One thing I am discovering, though, is that I am most certainly not a failure. I am learning that I am still what I was when I met W: a good, loving, open-hearted man with a lot to offer someone. In fact, being with W has taught me I probably underestimated myself when I was younger.

And at the same time, I also am very much flawed and imperfect. I won't consider myself a failure because of that. I will consider myself human because of that.

I will take the self-knowledge I am gaining and use it to craft a better future and a better me. You will do the same. The words from Kind and R2C are inspiring me as well.

Nobody is a failure who makes a positive impact on another's life.