I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Pattnee5]

Thanks Kind and R2C. So true sometimes we just need a hug or to curl up in someone’s arms and just cry. I thought I was doing so well, I cycle between acceptance and grief. However I just feel numb and like I was bowled over by a truck.
I am mourning what was( although not ideal the lash 12 months). I think I am also mourning the fact that it can never be like that again. H can’t just walk through the door without a complete overhaul and a lot of work.
It’s also tough when family keep expecting you to “be ok” and just want to tell you to hurry up and get on with it. Nobody understands this unless they have walked this path and honestly you guys on here are the only ones I feel understand.
MLC [censored]. I hope I never go through one myself