I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Pattnee5]

Sorry I should just reiterate something. I am generally ok, I am just heartbroken. Still playing the game and being amazing for my mum. But the waves I am struggling with, and how to really dig deeper and find my inner peace. I have accepted this is happening and am mourning this loss that h has chosen this path, but I just don’t know how to find my inner peace with this and the fact he has vaulted up his heart and mind and would rather just let us go instead of digging deep and working on stuff. He always praised my determination and the way I helped drive him and inspire him. Now he has put up a bullet proof fort and I feel like such a failure