The hardest part is riding the emotions right now of it being so final of knowing we will never be together again.
The problem here is that what you covet is because you are used to it, not because it’s good or healthy.
Humans (especially adults) are incredibly inflexible and thrive on routine and repetition.
If someone told you drinking Coca-Cola for breakfast was bad for you, you’d agree. But if you’d had that for breakfast exclusively for the last twenty years, you’d wake up and probably really miss it if someone said you couldn’t have it.
It’s important to gain some external perspective on your situation (such as talking to a counsellor) so that you start to recognise the difference between what you’re used to and what’s good for you.
Right now, based on what I’m reading, what you long for is really not what’s best for you or children. One day on the future, perhaps it is - but right now, definitely no.
You’re going to get through this. Emotions are temporary. I guarantee you’ll feel differently tomorrow, and the day after, and a week/month/year from now.
