I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Pattnee5]

Wow. Ok, is it a definite that he's actually going to take the job? Could he just be thinking about it? Could he just be mentioning it to upset you?

As a father, I couldn't imagine leaving my kid for a year, so it doesn't even really compute with me how or why he would do that. I'm going to assume that he knows most of whatever he makes at that job is going to go to you for child support.

A lot around this doesn’t make sense Terapin. I too couldn’t possibly see how or why he would even entertain this idea despite his feelings of wanting to separate.
He said he finds out soon about it it’s with his current company. His words were “ I most likely will take it if I get it as it’s a good career profession”
This is the same man who only 2 years ago was unsure of if he wanted to pursue a higher role within his company and who I had to nudge quite hard to stop procrastinating and do it.
Again I never in my wildest dreams imagined he would even entertain this idea he has always been such an amazing father and in the past he never would have even thought about it until the kids were much older. It’s almost like he doesn’t even care who he even hurts now.


It’s like he wants to completely run from his whole life here. I understand the daily grind of household chores and running around with the kids plus wife etc have taken a toll ( he even said “ I have just been ground down so much repeatedly by me, my past et)

Could he be saying it to upset me? Yes maybe but he did want to be open that it was in the pipeline.
It’s quite a terrible move really and idea but I can’t say a thing to tell him otherwise. He is such a stubborn person right now

I feel strong in how I accepted this and letting him go but there were still tiny fragments of hope and love I still clung to somewhere deep within